MAD MAD MAD

sometimes you think somebody loves you unconditionally, but with and in time you learn how untrue that is and maybe the love you once had has suddenly vanished and now it's forced. I don't know how to explain this but there was somebody that was once in my life, and still is... as a "different person", i loved him so much. He was my best friend and family that I could have loved unconditionally, but after a string of events and a thread of nasty comments and arguments, i learned that the love I thought was unconditional is now not.
and it makes me so sad and so mad to know that it no longer exists...
I don't hold grudges, believe me I don't. I'm just sensitive and emotional and sometimes extremely stupid but I know when things are said just to hurt me... i know when things have been said just to pierce my heart and I don't overreact in any way, I walk away and cry in silence. I'm only human, i don't like people seeing me weak, it's one of the things I just can't do, I like feeling tough and people seeing me as a tough person. I can never tell if that's a bad or good trait.
But that's not the point, i once loved a person i now hate
or in other words...
i now hate a person i once loved



hmm makes me really wonder.