Sunday, March 8, 2015
Being with someone
I think that the whole point of being with someone is you can talk to them about anything, would understand you and will let go of everything and even when you're at your worst, they still like you still want to speak to you and care about you and stuffff..
Thursday, February 19, 2015
"your mistakes do not define you"
This once never made any sense to me, what mistakes would lead
someone to even fathom a quote like that? I made mathematical mistakes during
an exam during my school years, falling for the "wrong" person,
taking the wrong route whilst driving or even getting on the wrong train- they
are all very little and minute mistakes that life throws at you during the long
and winded journey through it. However, I sat and thought about the quote when
I used to see it floating around the internet. I convinced myself that maybe
not everybody makes big mistakes, mistakes big enough to expound and mold who
people think you are. However, living through my teenage years, i realized that people
make mistakes, not little ones but big ones- ones that could potentially change
how you feel and think of yourself and how others do too. And it's only after
reading this quote do I realize that maybe they actually don't. I've made far
too many mistakes this past year... 8 months to be exact, and as much as I
would like to think I regret them, there's no point in doing so because let's
be honest here, everybody knows that the mistakes you make are lessons, they're
the next wooden panel along the rickety wooden bridge to another chapter in
your life. It may rock your insides quite traumatically, it may drive you
mental when you over think it but again, the mistake doesn't define you, it's
only a little bump in the road that you unfortunately had to live through. I
need to keep reminding myself this as it seems I do a lot of thinking sometimes
and not only that, i dive deep and deep and deeper into the smoky, dark and
dusty hollows of ancient caves. I think too much that I drive myself to
insanity sometimes, to a point where I feel like I can't get up anymore. How
stupid of me, but as my teenage years come to a close, it's just another
chapter in this massive novel that I need to live through. There's really no
point in dwelling as I still have a very long way to go, I think so anyway. I,
nor anybody else, knows when I'll turn the page and it'll be blank and my life
will be nothing but a puff of air, a droplet of information in this very vast,
colorful and noisy scientific universe.
Mistakes, hah.
Mistakes, hah.
Samantha: she got it off her chest
A: Sam! Okay, I know you think that I'm just some...
Sam: Coward? Phony?
A: Okay, just listen.
S: No, you listen. You turned out to be exactly who I thought you were. I never pretended to be somebody else. It's been me all along. And it was me who was hurt in front of everybody. Look, I didn't come here to yell at you, okay? I came to tell you that I know what it feels like to be afraid to show who you are. I was, but I'm not anymore. And the thing is, I really don't care what people think about me... because I believe in myself. And I know that things are gonna be okay. But even though I have no family, and no job, and no money for college... it's you that I feel sorry for. I know that guy that sent those emails is somewhere inside of you, but I can't wait for him... because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing.
*walks away*
A: SAM!
*punches locker*
Sam: Coward? Phony?
A: Okay, just listen.
S: No, you listen. You turned out to be exactly who I thought you were. I never pretended to be somebody else. It's been me all along. And it was me who was hurt in front of everybody. Look, I didn't come here to yell at you, okay? I came to tell you that I know what it feels like to be afraid to show who you are. I was, but I'm not anymore. And the thing is, I really don't care what people think about me... because I believe in myself. And I know that things are gonna be okay. But even though I have no family, and no job, and no money for college... it's you that I feel sorry for. I know that guy that sent those emails is somewhere inside of you, but I can't wait for him... because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing.
*walks away*
A: SAM!
*punches locker*
"Maybe you were looking, but you weren’t really seeing"
I think there’s many
ways to explain this quote.
…You never really paid
attention to the right person, because you were too busy searching?
Happiness is:
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting hand written letters.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate (Of course)
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding people who care.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Writing down your thoughts.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful/good looking.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Orange juice.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger then laugh.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies (and eating them...!)(....oooor throw the cookies from the balcony? haha. -inside joke-).
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Having people who trust you.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting hand written letters.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate (Of course)
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding people who care.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Writing down your thoughts.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful/good looking.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Orange juice.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger then laugh.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies (and eating them...!)(....oooor throw the cookies from the balcony? haha. -inside joke-).
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much-desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Having people who trust you.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.
It's already tomorrow in Australia
"Don't worry about the world coming to an end today. It's already tomorrow in Australia." (Charles Schultz)
The following is the philosophy of Charles Schultz, the creator of the "Peanuts" comic strip. You don't have to actually answer the questions. Just read the post straight through, and you'll get the point.
1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winner for best actor and actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.
How did you do?
The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Acheivements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.
Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:
1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special.
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.
Easier?
The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care.
The following is the philosophy of Charles Schultz, the creator of the "Peanuts" comic strip. You don't have to actually answer the questions. Just read the post straight through, and you'll get the point.
1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winner for best actor and actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.
How did you do?
The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Acheivements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.
Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:
1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special.
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.
Easier?
The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care.
Thursday, February 5, 2015
77
Get out of school
I'm glad x emailed me
For some reason, I wanted x to write first
Maybe because I wanted x to think I was so happy and busy that I didn't have time to talk
When in reality, I'm dying to talk
I'm glad x emailed me
For some reason, I wanted x to write first
Maybe because I wanted x to think I was so happy and busy that I didn't have time to talk
When in reality, I'm dying to talk
Saturday, January 24, 2015
Wednesday, January 7, 2015
Goodbye 2014
My mum and I were just talking and I broke down. I'm such an emotional person and nobody believes me but I literally just sobbed about the year ending! I can't believe 2014 is over I can't emphasize how important it was for me. Ah, i'm so bad at letting go :(
Are any of you like me too?
Last night was the coldest night of my life as we were staying at a friends holiday house in the mountains. I don't know what the temperature was but I slept in my jeans, boots and coat because it was just that freezing. I slept next to my friend and we were literally in each others arms, our noses were about to fall off. It was nice though for all of us to be on the floor laughing because of the cold. 3 guys from the group weren't able to make it last night and it upset me because I know if they were there it would have gone a lot differently, it would have been much more lovely to have been all together.
Besides all of that, it was a nice night. The fire was lit and we had tons of drinks and food around us. Two of the guys entertained us with their piano and guitar skills(haha) but most of the time, we had the iPod stereo on.
I had so much to eat I am disgusted with myself!! We ran around like losers and hugged each others that night, we looked up at the sky as snow blew up, above us, in the sky.
Anyway this is going to be another good year for me, even though I don't feel it. I'm going to live it to the fullest I know that :) I hope you all had a fantastic new years eve!!! What did you all dooo? Tell me xxx
Are any of you like me too?
Last night was the coldest night of my life as we were staying at a friends holiday house in the mountains. I don't know what the temperature was but I slept in my jeans, boots and coat because it was just that freezing. I slept next to my friend and we were literally in each others arms, our noses were about to fall off. It was nice though for all of us to be on the floor laughing because of the cold. 3 guys from the group weren't able to make it last night and it upset me because I know if they were there it would have gone a lot differently, it would have been much more lovely to have been all together.
Besides all of that, it was a nice night. The fire was lit and we had tons of drinks and food around us. Two of the guys entertained us with their piano and guitar skills(haha) but most of the time, we had the iPod stereo on.
I had so much to eat I am disgusted with myself!! We ran around like losers and hugged each others that night, we looked up at the sky as snow blew up, above us, in the sky.
Anyway this is going to be another good year for me, even though I don't feel it. I'm going to live it to the fullest I know that :) I hope you all had a fantastic new years eve!!! What did you all dooo? Tell me xxx
Tuesday, December 16, 2014
Day one, Renee
Film suggestion:
To Write Love On Her Arms movie "Renee" trailer
To Write Love on Her Arms is an American non-profit organization which aims to present hope for people struggling with addiction, depression, self injury, and thoughts of suicide while also investing directly into treatment and recovery. This organization is founded by Jamie Tworkowski in March 2006.
Day One (formerly Renee) is a 2012 American biographical drama film written and directed by Nathan Frankowski. Based on the life of Renee Yohe and the founding of To Write Love on Her Arms, the film premiered on March 11, 2012 at the Omaha Film Festival. The film is slated for wide release in March 2015 under the title To Write Love on Her Arms.
"DAY ONE" is based on the true story of Florida teenager Renee Yohe (played by Kat Dennings), whose struggle with addiction and abuse inspired the creation and 2006 launch of the non-profit organization To Write Love on Her Arms. In a creative blend of artistic fantasy, music and confrontation with harsh reality, Renee discovers the value of genuine friendships and embarks on a daunting, yet courageous journey towards recovery.
“This movie touches on just so many core things that are important in life. There’s such a beautiful human quality to this story, an incredible learning experience to meet people who have been through something like this and then meet them on the other side of it.”
“This movie reminds that if you know somebody who’s struggling with something—whether it’s addiction or depression or any other problem, maybe you should look outside yourself and reach out. I know it’s easier said than done, but these friends did just that for this girl.”
“Another reason why I wanted to do this movie is that it shows that you don’t just go get detoxed, and then go to rehab and you’re all better; it’s not like that. It’s something you’re going to have to do one day at a time for the rest of your life. I think it’s important for people to know that it’s okay to feel like you’re not better as long as you keep trying.”
“Rescue’s not possible if you don’t want it for yourself. I think one of the misconceptions about me was that this group of people just found me and came in and saved me. That would have never worked in a million years! Once you want it for yourself, you have to fight for it. You have to make that decision and be willing to do whatever it takes. Then, you can have a community come around and support that decision. But it really starts with you making a firm decision that you want help. I hope that those seeing this movie don’t see that it’s perfect or ties neatly into a little bow at the end. We don’t walk away with any specific ending.
I’m still alive; my story’s still going.”
To Write Love On Her Arms movie "Renee" trailer
To Write Love on Her Arms is an American non-profit organization which aims to present hope for people struggling with addiction, depression, self injury, and thoughts of suicide while also investing directly into treatment and recovery. This organization is founded by Jamie Tworkowski in March 2006.
Day One (formerly Renee) is a 2012 American biographical drama film written and directed by Nathan Frankowski. Based on the life of Renee Yohe and the founding of To Write Love on Her Arms, the film premiered on March 11, 2012 at the Omaha Film Festival. The film is slated for wide release in March 2015 under the title To Write Love on Her Arms.
About the film:
"DAY ONE" is based on the true story of Florida teenager Renee Yohe (played by Kat Dennings), whose struggle with addiction and abuse inspired the creation and 2006 launch of the non-profit organization To Write Love on Her Arms. In a creative blend of artistic fantasy, music and confrontation with harsh reality, Renee discovers the value of genuine friendships and embarks on a daunting, yet courageous journey towards recovery.
Behind the story
– Chad Michael Murray
– Rupert Friend
– Kat Dennings
I’m still alive; my story’s still going.”
– Renee Yohe
Sunday, December 7, 2014
Still love u anyway
Christmas is so soon omg! you all ready? I have such a jam packed weekend I am so excited.
I was sick last weekend so I wasn't really able to do much but I'm going out tomorrow night to help with all the decoration thing. I'm actually really not looking forward to the amount I'm going to eat because I seriously love Christmas dinners more than anything.
However, I can't wait to get my new shoes ehe :D
The main things that happened today,
1) Ran for an hour nonstop. 2) completely rewrote my sisters essay.
I love writing essays and i love elaborating.
Anyway, i'm not sure if this is too much but I think I might invite someone to come on Thursday. We're having Christmas dinner at like 4/5 so I'm thinking I might invite someone for a little while. My mum actually suggested it, but I'm not too sure maybe it's too much...
Or i should like text someone or whatever and be like "Merry Christmas you!" and blahblah and then towards the end i'll be like "hey, if you're not doing anything later pass by for a while, traditional English dinner blabla"
LOL i sound like an idiot, but really, what should I do? helppppxx
I was sick last weekend so I wasn't really able to do much but I'm going out tomorrow night to help with all the decoration thing. I'm actually really not looking forward to the amount I'm going to eat because I seriously love Christmas dinners more than anything.
However, I can't wait to get my new shoes ehe :D
The main things that happened today,
1) Ran for an hour nonstop. 2) completely rewrote my sisters essay.
I love writing essays and i love elaborating.
Anyway, i'm not sure if this is too much but I think I might invite someone to come on Thursday. We're having Christmas dinner at like 4/5 so I'm thinking I might invite someone for a little while. My mum actually suggested it, but I'm not too sure maybe it's too much...
Or i should like text someone or whatever and be like "Merry Christmas you!" and blahblah and then towards the end i'll be like "hey, if you're not doing anything later pass by for a while, traditional English dinner blabla"
LOL i sound like an idiot, but really, what should I do? helppppxx
eye contact
i dont know how i got here but i hope you're the one im searching for.
because ive spent the last two days searching for someone i dont know and someone i kept thinking about. i got to talk to a bunch of assholes to reach the person i wanna talk to, so i think got it? i think i do. just answer this question or me..
where were you on friday night?
because ive spent the last two days searching for someone i dont know and someone i kept thinking about. i got to talk to a bunch of assholes to reach the person i wanna talk to, so i think got it? i think i do. just answer this question or me..
where were you on friday night?
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Last day alone/Spring break post 1
hey! guess what?? ive turned 16 like a week ago! which means ive been using this site for 2 years already! daaaang!
So,
The past two weeks were amaaazing, ive been going out a lot with new people and eating a lot of junk food which isn't really amazing -lol- and having movie nights every single day/ yeah that's pretty much it. /tidying my bed every morning is a pain in the asssss omg/
As I said, my birthday was a week ago, and my parents weren't in Lebanon. They came back for 3 days just to say happy birthday! im lucky to have such parents. they're lovely.
My friends "surprised" me too! hmm do you want to know why I wrote surprise between quotation marks?? :
It wasn't really a surprise for me haha. I knew every single thing my friends were planning.. I mean im not that stupid I know how my friends act I know them since forever! (I won't write a lot of details about this, but there's so much to say). I really love my friends and I really appreciate what they did for me, I had a great time.
since today is my last day alone, im planning on going out all day.
anyway. im travelling to Amsterdam/Paris next sunday and I cant wait! it's going to be one hell of a trip.
So,
The past two weeks were amaaazing, ive been going out a lot with new people and eating a lot of junk food which isn't really amazing -lol- and having movie nights every single day/ yeah that's pretty much it. /tidying my bed every morning is a pain in the asssss omg/
As I said, my birthday was a week ago, and my parents weren't in Lebanon. They came back for 3 days just to say happy birthday! im lucky to have such parents. they're lovely.
My friends "surprised" me too! hmm do you want to know why I wrote surprise between quotation marks?? :
It wasn't really a surprise for me haha. I knew every single thing my friends were planning.. I mean im not that stupid I know how my friends act I know them since forever! (I won't write a lot of details about this, but there's so much to say). I really love my friends and I really appreciate what they did for me, I had a great time.
since today is my last day alone, im planning on going out all day.
anyway. im travelling to Amsterdam/Paris next sunday and I cant wait! it's going to be one hell of a trip.
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Feeling independent
So ive spent the last two weeks mostly alone, and I realized how hard life is when you're alone. you just sit there in your room with no one around - friends call me sometimes - but it's not the same as if someone is around. Before spending those two weeks alone, I was irresponsible, I admit. Now that im alone, im studying, cooking, cleaning without my mom asking me to do it /cooking is so hard omg, it's not as easy as it seems/. I'm actually surprised. I wake up automatically and tidy my bed - I wasn't used to - wash the dishes of last night, wear my clothes and go to school. It's like a new habit..
I still have two weeks alone, it's a good experience tho.. It made me realize stuff I didn't thought about before..
ANNNNND 22 more day till Amsterdam/Paris trip! Ugh I can't fxcking wait! I'm sure this will be one of the best trips ever. seriously.
xxxxxxxxx
I still have two weeks alone, it's a good experience tho.. It made me realize stuff I didn't thought about before..
ANNNNND 22 more day till Amsterdam/Paris trip! Ugh I can't fxcking wait! I'm sure this will be one of the best trips ever. seriously.
xxxxxxxxx
Wednesday, April 2, 2014
Happy Girl
People don't believe me when i say i'm actually a very happy girl.
The sun is out today and everything is full of life and colour. I'm so grateful for another day I can't even put it into words right now. It's true what they say when you feel happy, you look lovely :)
After a day of thinking that I have no hope in my love life, 3 really cute guys smiled at me more than once and we had eye contact for a while and it made me giggle and blush. I'm really shy sometimes but it made me really happy :)
Also sometimes it takes a bit of effort to look decent enough to face the world and even though it was a little chilly, i wore a colourful top and got into hippie mode, i love it.
Despite all of that though, I've spent the past few days writing in my diary. I am 16 so soon!! oh my goodness, i say it every year but this time it's actually daunting. I'm done some more writing to ease my mind, a lot of it these days is a little dark and lonely but i promise it won't be any more. Do you guys want to see it because I wouldn't mind dedicating a whole post to one of my recent pieces. But it's up to you, let me know :)
Love you all so much, and thanks for the dms and your kind words xxxxxx
The sun is out today and everything is full of life and colour. I'm so grateful for another day I can't even put it into words right now. It's true what they say when you feel happy, you look lovely :)
After a day of thinking that I have no hope in my love life, 3 really cute guys smiled at me more than once and we had eye contact for a while and it made me giggle and blush. I'm really shy sometimes but it made me really happy :)
Also sometimes it takes a bit of effort to look decent enough to face the world and even though it was a little chilly, i wore a colourful top and got into hippie mode, i love it.
Despite all of that though, I've spent the past few days writing in my diary. I am 16 so soon!! oh my goodness, i say it every year but this time it's actually daunting. I'm done some more writing to ease my mind, a lot of it these days is a little dark and lonely but i promise it won't be any more. Do you guys want to see it because I wouldn't mind dedicating a whole post to one of my recent pieces. But it's up to you, let me know :)
Love you all so much, and thanks for the dms and your kind words xxxxxx
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
crush? friendship? hm.
So, him and I are friends now. Like real serious, public, joke around, talk forever and at 5am kind of friends! It's been so incredible- for me anyway. I don't know where this is leading, nowhere perhaps but this whole friendship thing is so much fun and has been amazing that I can't just walk away.
A couple of weeks ago, he sent me a good morning text, and when I say good morning I don't actually mean the words but starting a conversation at 9am, as soon as he got up. I mean that is a POSITIVE THING isn't it? He also sent me a couple of photos of him high fiving his cats lol. total hottie. Also the other day when I saw him at the gym, him on the treadmill, i went up to him and even though he was running and out of breath we had a conversation and he invited me out to lunch and for a movie( with a friend of his but whatever). We ended up going to an Italian restaurant cause his friend was Italian and it was so lovely. he picked me up and we went and his friend was half an hour late lol- better!
And today, my friend Tamara invited us to watch a football game: Manchester United vs Bayern Munich.
He was there with a group of funny friends. I can't believe this little crush is making me act like such a kid, but we really had fun tonight. I mean.. the laughs, the hugs.. those little things mean a lot.
it's so damn frustrating that I can't deal with it sometimes, but I'm letting him deeper and deeper into my heart, i'm the stupid one to be honest, it's all my fault.
he's lovely.
A couple of weeks ago, he sent me a good morning text, and when I say good morning I don't actually mean the words but starting a conversation at 9am, as soon as he got up. I mean that is a POSITIVE THING isn't it? He also sent me a couple of photos of him high fiving his cats lol. total hottie. Also the other day when I saw him at the gym, him on the treadmill, i went up to him and even though he was running and out of breath we had a conversation and he invited me out to lunch and for a movie( with a friend of his but whatever). We ended up going to an Italian restaurant cause his friend was Italian and it was so lovely. he picked me up and we went and his friend was half an hour late lol- better!
And today, my friend Tamara invited us to watch a football game: Manchester United vs Bayern Munich.
He was there with a group of funny friends. I can't believe this little crush is making me act like such a kid, but we really had fun tonight. I mean.. the laughs, the hugs.. those little things mean a lot.
it's so damn frustrating that I can't deal with it sometimes, but I'm letting him deeper and deeper into my heart, i'm the stupid one to be honest, it's all my fault.
he's lovely.
Friday, March 28, 2014
...just because i dont show it doesn't mean i dont feel it
You know that feeling? When you're just waiting.. Waiting to go home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation.. Nothing is wrong but nothing is right either. And you're tired.. you're tired of everything and tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it's okay. But no one's going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you're tired of waiting Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for onceee, you just want it to be easy. To be simple, to be helped, to be saved. But you know you won't be. but you're still hoping, and you're still wishing, and you're still staying strong and fighting with tears in your eyes. You're fighting. Sometimes you try your hardest, but things don't go the way you want them to.
I really want to sneak out with somebody. I just want to get up in the middle of the night and spend some time alone with someone. We could go have a midnight snack at McDonald's or just walk around and talk about things we normally wouldn't or maybe we could go enjoy ourselves at a park and play of the swings, or we could climb a roof and just watch the stars in silence. Nothing but just good vibes and good company. I'm the girl who prefers sunflowers instead of roses, who would rather stay in on a Friday night than go to a wild party with random strangers, i wouldn't make you wait on my hand and foot, but would do anything to make someone happy, i would enjoy having a movie night rather than going to some fancy restaurant, i would rather stay up all night sharing secrets than going out and getting drunk. I'm the girl who wont make you hold her bags, but would rather hold your hand instead.
And you know what really sucks about falling for a guy you know you're not right for? You fall anyway because you think he might turn out to be different. But he ignores you and you like him. He does nothing YET you fall for him. You miss him even though you know he's never thought about you, and you're just sitting there waiting for a call from him or anything. Sometimes guys don't know everything a girl can do for them. A girl can find every single thing related to the guy she likes such as lyrics, quotes, and movies - everything ( ok i admit it. you're the guy all my love quotes are about. you're the one im thinking about right now. cause i really like you. i still like you, i swear, i always will. ). A girl could stay up late in the night just to wait for her crush to get online and talk for a while. Guys have no idea of how many fights we could have had with our parents or friends just to go out or talk to you. You, guys, don't know that girls, would walk a little faster or take different ways at school just to make it "accidentally" way to say 'hi'. Girls can talk about you with anyone and not get bored. Sometimes guys don't know how we could have passed thought tears and pain, just to be okay with them. I wonder how boys feel when they're in love. do they get butterflies? do they have you on their mind 24/7? do they wait for you to come online for hours? do they smile at random times at the thought of you? do they miss you all the time? do they think about the smallest things you say?
I remember once I was alone with him, I opened my mouth, almost said something.. ALMOST!!! The rest of my life might have turned out differently if I had.. but I didn't. I think it's one of the saddest things is when two people really get to know each other, their secrets, their fears, their fav things what they like and what they hate.. literally everything and then they go bsck to being strangers. It's like you have to walk past them and pretend like you never knew them, never even talked to them before, when really you know everything about them. You know, I think one of the worst feelings is finding out that you didn't mean as much to someone as you thought you did, and you just feel stupid, and because you looked desperate, about caring too much. I really wanna kiss him and be cute with him and fall asleep in his arms and go on stupid dates but I also sort of want to light him on fire and throw myself into traffic so idk
I really want to sneak out with somebody. I just want to get up in the middle of the night and spend some time alone with someone. We could go have a midnight snack at McDonald's or just walk around and talk about things we normally wouldn't or maybe we could go enjoy ourselves at a park and play of the swings, or we could climb a roof and just watch the stars in silence. Nothing but just good vibes and good company. I'm the girl who prefers sunflowers instead of roses, who would rather stay in on a Friday night than go to a wild party with random strangers, i wouldn't make you wait on my hand and foot, but would do anything to make someone happy, i would enjoy having a movie night rather than going to some fancy restaurant, i would rather stay up all night sharing secrets than going out and getting drunk. I'm the girl who wont make you hold her bags, but would rather hold your hand instead.
And you know what really sucks about falling for a guy you know you're not right for? You fall anyway because you think he might turn out to be different. But he ignores you and you like him. He does nothing YET you fall for him. You miss him even though you know he's never thought about you, and you're just sitting there waiting for a call from him or anything. Sometimes guys don't know everything a girl can do for them. A girl can find every single thing related to the guy she likes such as lyrics, quotes, and movies - everything ( ok i admit it. you're the guy all my love quotes are about. you're the one im thinking about right now. cause i really like you. i still like you, i swear, i always will. ). A girl could stay up late in the night just to wait for her crush to get online and talk for a while. Guys have no idea of how many fights we could have had with our parents or friends just to go out or talk to you. You, guys, don't know that girls, would walk a little faster or take different ways at school just to make it "accidentally" way to say 'hi'. Girls can talk about you with anyone and not get bored. Sometimes guys don't know how we could have passed thought tears and pain, just to be okay with them. I wonder how boys feel when they're in love. do they get butterflies? do they have you on their mind 24/7? do they wait for you to come online for hours? do they smile at random times at the thought of you? do they miss you all the time? do they think about the smallest things you say?
I remember once I was alone with him, I opened my mouth, almost said something.. ALMOST!!! The rest of my life might have turned out differently if I had.. but I didn't. I think it's one of the saddest things is when two people really get to know each other, their secrets, their fears, their fav things what they like and what they hate.. literally everything and then they go bsck to being strangers. It's like you have to walk past them and pretend like you never knew them, never even talked to them before, when really you know everything about them. You know, I think one of the worst feelings is finding out that you didn't mean as much to someone as you thought you did, and you just feel stupid, and because you looked desperate, about caring too much. I really wanna kiss him and be cute with him and fall asleep in his arms and go on stupid dates but I also sort of want to light him on fire and throw myself into traffic so idk
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Do you miss someone?..
There are three ways you can miss someone.
One, when a person is far away, and you anxiously count down the days until you'll see them again, because you know it doesn't really matter how long you're separated for, you'll be able to catch right up.
Two, when a person is gone for good, and the only thing you can rely on is the old photographs, texts and memories you once shared, and despite those being able to make you smile or laugh and all you really want is that person to come back.. Do you ever see a picture of someone that you used to be so close to and you just remember everything you did together and all the things you said you would do together, all the late night conversations or phone calls and remember all the good things and bad things both of you have been through together but then you remember that they're now just a memory and they're not in your life anymore.
And finally the third, is when a person isn't gone at all.. When you see that person everyday, but they've changed, or the situation has changed or your relationship has changed. You miss that person for everything that once was, and even tough you might still be able to see them, it's not, and never will be, the same again. When someone walks out of your life, let them.. There's no use in wasting your time on people that leave you. What you make of yourself and your future is no longer tied to them. Yeah.. you may miss them now.. But remember that you weren't the one that gave up..
It actually sucks because while writing this, I just realized I really fxcking miss some people.
One, when a person is far away, and you anxiously count down the days until you'll see them again, because you know it doesn't really matter how long you're separated for, you'll be able to catch right up.
Two, when a person is gone for good, and the only thing you can rely on is the old photographs, texts and memories you once shared, and despite those being able to make you smile or laugh and all you really want is that person to come back.. Do you ever see a picture of someone that you used to be so close to and you just remember everything you did together and all the things you said you would do together, all the late night conversations or phone calls and remember all the good things and bad things both of you have been through together but then you remember that they're now just a memory and they're not in your life anymore.
And finally the third, is when a person isn't gone at all.. When you see that person everyday, but they've changed, or the situation has changed or your relationship has changed. You miss that person for everything that once was, and even tough you might still be able to see them, it's not, and never will be, the same again. When someone walks out of your life, let them.. There's no use in wasting your time on people that leave you. What you make of yourself and your future is no longer tied to them. Yeah.. you may miss them now.. But remember that you weren't the one that gave up..
It actually sucks because while writing this, I just realized I really fxcking miss some people.
Saturday, March 22, 2014
Have you ever?
Have you ever met someone that they surprised you?
like.. you meet this person, and at first you hardly pay any attention to them.. You may not be at all attracted to this person, but as you get to know the real them, you notice yourself falling.
This person who was once nothing to you has become e v e r y t h i n g.
ALL of a sudden. They're the most beautiful person you've ever met.
it's just funny looking back.. You never saw it coming.. it's just kind of.. happened ?
hmmm..
like.. you meet this person, and at first you hardly pay any attention to them.. You may not be at all attracted to this person, but as you get to know the real them, you notice yourself falling.
This person who was once nothing to you has become e v e r y t h i n g.
ALL of a sudden. They're the most beautiful person you've ever met.
it's just funny looking back.. You never saw it coming.. it's just kind of.. happened ?
hmmm..
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