Day one, Renee

Film suggestion:

To Write Love On Her Arms movie "Renee" trailer

 To Write Love on Her Arms is an American non-profit organization which aims to present hope for people struggling with addiction, depression, self injury, and thoughts of suicide while also investing directly into treatment and recovery. This organization is founded by Jamie Tworkowski in March 2006.
 
 Day One (formerly Renee) is a 2012 American biographical drama film written and directed by Nathan Frankowski. Based on the life of Renee Yohe and the founding of To Write Love on Her Arms, the film premiered on March 11, 2012 at the Omaha Film Festival. The film is slated for wide release in March 2015 under the title To Write Love on Her Arms.

About the film:

"DAY ONE" is based on the true story of Florida teenager Renee Yohe (played by Kat Dennings), whose struggle with addiction and abuse inspired the creation and 2006 launch of the non-profit organization To Write Love on Her Arms. In a creative blend of artistic fantasy, music and confrontation with harsh reality, Renee discovers the value of genuine friendships and embarks on a daunting, yet courageous journey towards recovery.

Behind the story

 

“This movie touches on just so many core things that are important in life. There’s such a beautiful human quality to this story, an incredible learning experience to meet people who have been through something like this and then meet them on the other side of it.”

– Chad Michael Murray

 

“This movie reminds that if you know somebody who’s struggling with something—whether it’s addiction or depression or any other problem, maybe you should look outside yourself and reach out. I know it’s easier said than done, but these friends did just that for this girl.”

– Rupert Friend

 

“Another reason why I wanted to do this movie is that it shows that you don’t just go get detoxed, and then go to rehab and you’re all better; it’s not like that. It’s something you’re going to have to do one day at a time for the rest of your life. I think it’s important for people to know that it’s okay to feel like you’re not better as long as you keep trying.”

– Kat Dennings

 

“Rescue’s not possible if you don’t want it for yourself. I think one of the misconceptions about me was that this group of people just found me and came in and saved me. That would have never worked in a million years! Once you want it for yourself, you have to fight for it. You have to make that decision and be willing to do whatever it takes. Then, you can have a community come around and support that decision. But it really starts with you making a firm decision that you want help. I hope that those seeing this movie don’t see that it’s perfect or ties neatly into a little bow at the end. We don’t walk away with any specific ending.
I’m still alive; my story’s still going.”

– Renee Yohe

 

 

Still love u anyway

Christmas is so soon omg! you all ready? I have such a jam packed weekend I am so excited.
I was sick last weekend so I wasn't really able to do much but I'm going out tomorrow night to help with all the decoration thing. I'm actually really not looking forward to the amount I'm going to eat because I seriously love Christmas dinners more than anything.
However, I can't wait to get my new shoes ehe :D


The main things that happened today,
1) Ran for an hour nonstop.       2) completely rewrote my sisters essay.
I love writing essays and i love elaborating.


Anyway, i'm not sure if this is too much but I think I might invite someone to come on Thursday. We're having Christmas dinner at like 4/5 so I'm thinking I might invite someone for a little while. My mum actually suggested it, but I'm not too sure maybe it's too much...
Or i should like text someone or whatever and be like "Merry Christmas you!" and blahblah and then towards the end i'll be like "hey, if you're not doing anything later pass by for a while, traditional English dinner blabla"
LOL i sound like an idiot, but really, what should I do? helppppxx

eye contact

i dont know how i got here but i hope you're the one im searching for.

because ive spent the last two days searching for someone i dont know and someone i kept thinking about. i got to talk to a bunch of assholes to reach the person i wanna talk to, so i think got it? i think i do. just answer this question or me..

where were you on friday night?

Last day alone/Spring break post 1

hey! guess what?? ive turned 16 like a week ago! which means ive been using this site for 2 years already! daaaang!
So,
The past two weeks were amaaazing, ive been going out a lot with new people and eating a lot of junk food which isn't really amazing -lol- and having movie nights every single day/ yeah that's pretty much it. /tidying my bed every morning is a pain in the asssss omg/
As I said, my birthday was a week ago, and my parents weren't in Lebanon. They came back for 3 days just to say happy birthday! im lucky to have such parents. they're lovely.
My friends "surprised" me too! hmm do you want to know why I wrote surprise between quotation marks?? :
It wasn't really a surprise for me haha. I knew every single thing my friends were planning.. I mean im not that stupid I know how my friends act I know them since forever! (I won't write a lot of details about this, but there's so much to say). I really love my friends and I really appreciate what they did for me, I had a great time.
since today is my last day alone, im planning on going out all day.
anyway. im travelling to Amsterdam/Paris next sunday and I cant wait! it's going to be one hell of a trip.

Feeling independent

So ive spent the last two weeks mostly alone, and I realized how hard life is when you're alone. you just sit there in your room with no one around - friends call me sometimes - but it's not the same as if someone is around. Before spending those two weeks alone, I was irresponsible, I admit. Now that im alone, im studying, cooking, cleaning without my mom asking me to do it /cooking is so hard omg, it's not as easy as it seems/. I'm actually surprised. I wake up automatically and tidy my bed - I wasn't used to - wash the dishes of last night, wear my clothes and go to school. It's like a new habit..
I still have two weeks alone, it's a good experience tho.. It made me realize stuff I didn't thought about before..



ANNNNND 22 more day till Amsterdam/Paris trip! Ugh I can't fxcking wait! I'm sure this will be one of the best trips ever. seriously.

xxxxxxxxx

Happy Girl

People don't believe me when i say i'm actually a very happy girl.
The sun is out today and everything is full of life and colour. I'm so grateful for another day I can't even put it into words right now. It's true what they say when you feel happy, you look lovely :)
After a day of thinking that I have no hope in my love life, 3 really cute guys smiled at me more than once and we had eye contact for a while and it made me giggle and blush. I'm really shy sometimes but it made me really happy :)
Also sometimes it takes a bit of effort to look decent enough to face the world and even though it was a little chilly, i wore a colourful top and got into hippie mode, i love it.


Despite all of that though, I've spent the past few days writing in my diary. I am 16 so soon!! oh my goodness, i say it every year but this time it's actually daunting. I'm done some more writing to ease my mind, a lot of it these days is a little dark and lonely but i promise it won't be any more. Do you guys want to see it because I wouldn't mind dedicating a whole post to one of my recent pieces. But it's up to you, let me know :)


Love you all so much, and thanks for the dms and your kind words xxxxxx

crush? friendship? hm.

So, him and I are friends now. Like real serious, public, joke around, talk forever and at 5am kind of friends! It's been so incredible- for me anyway. I don't know where this is leading, nowhere perhaps but this whole friendship thing is so much fun and has been amazing that I can't just walk away.
A couple of weeks ago, he sent me a good morning text, and when I say good morning I don't actually mean the words but starting a conversation at 9am, as soon as he got up. I mean that is a POSITIVE THING isn't it? He also sent me a couple of photos of him high fiving his cats lol. total hottie. Also the other day when I saw him at the gym, him on the treadmill, i went up to him and even though he was running and out of breath we had a conversation and he invited me out to lunch and for a movie( with a friend of his but whatever). We ended up going to an Italian restaurant cause his friend was Italian and it was so lovely. he picked me up and we went and his friend was half an hour late lol- better!
And today, my friend Tamara invited us to watch a football game: Manchester United vs Bayern Munich.
He was there with a group of funny friends. I can't believe this little crush is making me act like such a kid, but we really had fun tonight. I mean.. the laughs, the hugs.. those little things mean a lot.
it's so damn frustrating that I can't deal with it sometimes, but I'm letting him deeper and deeper into my heart, i'm the stupid one to be honest, it's all my fault.
he's lovely.