A quick letter for Mothers Day

Dear mom,
You know I've told you before that  love writing stuff down, specially on my blog. And I love receiving letters, so I thought I'll write you a quick letter.

Today is your day because 364 days you make it our day. You selflessly care for each of us in ways that only a mother could.
And as the world looks to the woman in their lives that have meant so much to them, I look to you mom and see someone who is worthy of celebrating.

Thank you for teaching me.
Thank you for teaching me how to behave and how to share with others..
Thank you for teaching me about life.
You are the reason why I exist and you are appreciated.
Thank you mom for all that you do because I would be no where without you.

Today the celebration of you does not stop, in fact it serves as a reminder for all the amazing things you do for us each and every day.
Yes, today is mothers day.. but truthfully every day is mothers day, because every day you deserve to hear "thank you" and "I love you".

Happy mothers day! <3

Love,      

Aya.

 

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Happy mothers day to all the mothers out there. You are truly a blessing to everyone.

I can be serious when I have to be

I've never been the serious person, never been the... let me admit is, adult and lady like.
I've always been and I think I may always be, a kid. No joke.
I absolutely love photographing random things, running around the streets at night and not caring what 'adults' may think, slurping the bottom of my drink, being a messy eater and all of that. I'm not ashamed of it. I love being the quirky, random, sometimes loud, fun and young hearted person. I will always be this person.
But sometimes, you need to be serious.
it's like another world takes over. It's weird isn't it? When you can be two people at once, have two personalities at once. Makes me wonder how many people lie about what they're really like.


Yeah, so that's just me and I'd thought i'd put it out there.

Just a thought..

A thought that always comes into my mind :

When i'm in a car .. I see people and faces ...
I SEE THEM ... But they will never see me .
Or when you're out , and you take the short cut ... you see people. But what if you took the long way?
You would have never seen them .
It's just a weird thing i have going on . I've been thinking about that for the past year or so .

Most of you won't read this..

Either because it's too long or because you don't really care for what I say because I'm really uninteresting most of the time.

My God have I changed.  I don't know if it's only me that is mostly been sent bad luck but things are always happening to me. It pains me to have to blog and write about such negative things because I'm usually very happy and I give off such good feelings and I'm just such a positive person but last night has changed me.


I don't know if I'll remain the person I was once this phase is over but for now I know I am a changed person. I'm running thru a lot of bullshit and negative stuff lately and this one person pops up suddenly in my life and I thought it was something, because I believe everything happens for a reason, like my hero maybe? I'm just an overthinker and this is nonsense I think I should stop thinking about this person for now, but I swear this person is one of a kind... And last night, I had to fight a big man off of me and he only pounced because he wanted his "partner in crime" to be able to get away with my phone.
I don't know if you took away what I just said, but yes, my phone was literally pulled out of my bag. A disgusting hearted man put his hand into my bag and took my phone out. He literally just took it with no thought of how he'd leave me to feel.
I feel like I'm not myself. I had to fight him off of me as he grabbed my wrists and tried to pull me to the ground. Luckily I'm not a wuss and have learned self defense and he got on the ground before I did and I got the security to come.
It was the worst night of my life and I will never be the same again. I hate people sometimes. I went out this afternoon and I realized how different I see things now. I don't trust people and think they're good like I used to. I don't know why I ever thought that way but I did.
I've always been protected and I never thought it would happen to me. But now it has and the tables have turned and it has made me realize how dangerous the world is.

Thirteen

He was crippled, but only his body was cracked.
It's not simple, nor is it an easy matter to explain.
'Let's just leave it at that' she says...
and closes the holy book of lies.
She covers her eyes, denying to herself what she thought happened.

Advice

Can you all see how much I've changed over the years? People try to tell me that they're only minute changes but frankly speaking, I think I'm completely different! My face and hair has matured and even though they might be just very little difference, it makes a tremendous difference..
Anyway, the main reason for this post is to say that everything changes even thought we might not realize it.
People have asked me HOW I've lost 5 kilos... and may I add i surprisingly lost another half...
A lot of people I know are going through weight problems and all of that, and I guess i'm going to save you(the people who want to know) you the trouble of going through years of trial and error diets...
First of all... diets... yeah well, they suck. They never ever work because once you get off a certain diet, you gain the weight again. It's all a yo-yo game.
So here i go, MY tricks are...


1) GET OUT OF THE HOUSE because if you're BORED at home then it is most likely you'll want to snack on something. I've never been a huge huge fan of junk so I guess that has helped me a lot in my life. Don't eat because you are bored. Snack on things like cucumbers or lettuce. I always do and I love it! And if you're a fan of vinegar then you'll be happy to know that it helps burn fat! Wehey. So if you put that on your lettuce then it'll help! And it's like what? Less than 10kcals... so you can eat how much you want! :D


2) GET BUSY! For the paste few weeks, I've actually been doing things like going out and being with friends and I've been really busy packing and sorting out everything... I literally didn't even have time to think about having anything to eat between meals. If though, you want to have something, gum is always a good source... because sometimes you're not hungry, you just want to chew on something...


3) While eating... you need to understand that having more than a plate of food is okay... AS LONG AS YOU ARE STILL HUNGRY! You know what I mean? For example you're at a dinner and someone made something really yummy that you really really like... ( Like I LOVE chicken curry SO much!) but the world isn't going to ever run out of it, so just have a decent amount and if you fancy it again another day then have it then... don't drown yourself in it until you can't move.


4) You've probably heard about this SOOOOO many times... but i promise you it is SO true. Do NOT Dehydrate yourself... Have water with you always and you don't need to be thirsty to have water, it's more of a habit. So have a bottle of water with you at any time of the day... and try to finish four!


5) The final and very last thing that has helped me... exercise. I know you're like "bla bla yeah i'm not int he mood for it. i can't be bothered, i'm too lazy. maybe tomorrow." But trust me, the ONLY way to lose the most weight is to literally SHOCK your body. I read that somewhere and ever since I've been doing a lot of running, and every time I push myself a little more... it honest truly really helps.


So anyway i didn't want this to turn into a lecture, but i guess it has. I am so sorry if i sound like a freak or anything but I guess this could be a helping hand and you can listen to me or well, you can ignore me LOL. I don't mind.
HOPE I'VE HELPED OR MADE SENSE...


xx

MAD MAD MAD

sometimes you think somebody loves you unconditionally, but with and in time you learn how untrue that is and maybe the love you once had has suddenly vanished and now it's forced. I don't know how to explain this but there was somebody that was once in my life, and still is... as a "different person", i loved him so much. He was my best friend and family that I could have loved unconditionally, but after a string of events and a thread of nasty comments and arguments, i learned that the love I thought was unconditional is now not.
and it makes me so sad and so mad to know that it no longer exists...
I don't hold grudges, believe me I don't. I'm just sensitive and emotional and sometimes extremely stupid but I know when things are said just to hurt me... i know when things have been said just to pierce my heart and I don't overreact in any way, I walk away and cry in silence. I'm only human, i don't like people seeing me weak, it's one of the things I just can't do, I like feeling tough and people seeing me as a tough person. I can never tell if that's a bad or good trait.
But that's not the point, i once loved a person i now hate
or in other words...
i now hate a person i once loved



hmm makes me really wonder.